Since young I've had this insecurity with myself. Perhaps having a smart sibling puts you in a position where you feel like you're constantly being compared with him/her. It's like a standard you'll never reach. I'm not born like that, and I'm not ashamed of it. Not like what you said, I'm ashamed of having a smart sibling. I am not, never felt that way and never will. Who won't be happy seeing their sibling move on to a better phase in life? It's just that I feel like I'm not being taken seriously in this house. I don't speak my feelings much to them and it might make it seems like I'm always okay but I'm not. I just don't want to be a burden, I think you have enough to worry about. I rarely ask for things, cause I'd rather earn it myself. I don't know why I always let you have the misconception that I'm not thinking seriously enough for myself/my future/whatever. Not displaying it out doesn't mean I'm really that ignorant ok?
Everytime i engage in a serious conversation with the family, it'll end up in tears. Miscommunication? or what? Someone tell me what to do please? Cause I'm really tired of not being understood.
There are a million things that goes through my mind which y'all will never know. To be frank, I've never felt like this in a while. It's been very very long since I had my last blow and having a stain on my relationship with the family is the last thing I'd want.
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